Mea Culpa, Mea Culpa, Mea Maxima Culpa
Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one was a pharisee, and the other a publican. The pharisee standing, prayed thus with himself: O God, I give Thee thanks that I am not as the rest of men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers; as also is this publican. I fast twice in the week; I give tithes of all that I possess.
And the publican standing afar off would not so much as lift up his eyes towards heaven, but struck his breast saying: O God, be merciful to me a sinner.
I say to you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: because every one that exalteth himself shall be humbled: and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted. (Luke 18: 10-14)
The Humility of the Publican
I was blessed this weekend during Mass with a very brief, but beautiful, moment. A spiritual consolation.
It came during the Gospel reading. To preface, my family and I attend a parish which offers the Mass in both the Extraordinary and Ordinary Forms. Most weekends we choose to attend the Extraordinary Form, or Traditional Latin Mass. This past Sunday was the 10th Sunday after Pentecost on the old Liturgical Calendar. The reading was the parable of the Pharisee and the Publican.
As Father read the Gospel in Latin I followed along in my Missal. When we read about the humility of the publican and his prayer “O God, be merciful to me a sinner”, I found myself choking up; moved by the scripture. It was a brief moment, gone in an instant.
For some reason the absolute humility and heartfelt contrition of this despised publican touched me. Saint Alphonsus Ligouri once wrote that “spiritual consolations are gifts which are much more precious than all the riches and honors of the world.”
I thought about how much I wished I was the publican and not the pharisee in this parable. Truth be told, I am far more often the pharisee. My fallen human nature has often manifested itself in that most foundational of sins: Pride.
At times I am too comfortable with my own sense of piety, much like the pharisee. The profound humility expressed in this simple aspiration of the publican can serve as an entire treatise on prayer for those like myself who are afflicted with pride.
Confiteor Deo omnipotenti
In such shame and regret for his sinful ways, the publican “would not so much as lift up his eyes towards heaven, but struck his breast”. True contrition. Within the liturgy we find the same need to confess and to ask for God’s mercy in the Confiteor.
The Confiteor (which simply means “I confess” in Latin) has wisely been placed by the Church early in the Mass. In the Traditional Latin Mass it is the Priest and Ministers who recite this ancient form of confession which has been a part of the liturgy since at least the 11th Century. In The Holy Mass, Dom Prosper Gueranger reminds us that the Priest, desiring to express that he has sinned and has done so through his own free will utters the following:
“Mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa: through my fault, through my fault, through my most grievous fault. And, that he may, like the publican of the Gospel, outwardly testify his inward repentance, he thrice strikes his breast, whilst saying those words.” (The Holy Mass, pg.7)
Our Holy Mother the Church grants us such means to be forgiven of our sins: first, for mortal sins, the Sacrament of Reconciliation (or Penance); additionally, for venial sins, the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. Mercy will be shown to us if we simply approach our Lord with the sincere humility and true contrition demonstrated by the publican.
For those times, Lord, when pride prevailed in my heart and humility was lacking:
I confess to Almighty God, to blessed Mary ever Virgin, to blessed Michael the Archangel, to blessed John the Baptist, to the holy Apostles Peter and Paul, to all the Saints, and to you, brethren, that I have sinned exceedingly in thought, word and deed: through my fault, through my fault, through my most grievous fault.
Therefore I beseech blessed Mary ever Virgin, blessed Michael the Archangel, blessed John the Baptist, the holy Apostles Peter and Paul, all the Saints, and you, brethren, to pray for me to the Lord our God.